Drifted apart

Sometimes u just make me wonder...is it all real, is it the real u?....i'm really confused....one moment u're laughing, enjoying..one moment later, it just emo all the way.....silence...not a word mentioned until it concerns u....why do i feel like i'm the one contributing to this....I have no idea if u noticed, but i tried....again n again....but it never works....i feel like i'm the only one not able to do anything, the one whose not able to help out or get along with.... i wonder, are u happy or are u still hoping for something else...i guess it's bcoz we have nothing in common anymore....everyone feeds u with a certain need, desire, interest...something in common....but not me...i think it lost long time ago....everything i do or ask just to end with a one-word answer n then the end....i feel like giving up, [hah!] but i noe i cant...i admit that we could go on a day, everday without talking at all n i woulnt even feel like anything's missing but...it's just my nature to bother...to feel kinda guilty...i do not want this to continue....i want a change, back to the old days...i will try my best to not let this matter slip out hand as long as i can help it....but all i ask of u is just to respond sincerely and realise....

FINALLY!!

HI ppl!!...Finally i'm posting something...i was supposed to post about my langkawi trip..but currently i don't have the time..as u all noe tht the exams r coming up....so i'll catch yall later!!...i noe the others will be angry..but hey, it's still a post!!..so chow!!!

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just wanted to say,
be yourself and don't act like
you're different or what not.

but still
no offence to anyone who feels like
they're one of those people who aren't themselves.

Thinking Maturely

This time
I begin to doubt myself.
For once, i used to think that i am a good listener.
I am not. I'll complain.
For once, i used to think that i am a good friend.
I am not. I'll betray, someday.
For once, i used to think that i am a good junior/senior.
I am not. I don't have respondsibilty.
For once, i used to think that i am a good daughter.
I am not. I'm just thinking selfishly.
I am not like what you think of.

From now on,
I need not any company
because i don't mind of being solitary.
I believe
i can fly without wings;
i can dream without fairy tales;
i can shine without light;
and,
i can move on without you
because i have to.

and, I'll never, ever, hate myself in my whole life.

''It tears me up.
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much.
I tried to forgive but it's not enough,
to make it all okay.''

; Broken String, James Morrsion & Nelly Fertado

Our garden

I ponteng school today.
Somehow, i went to school at 1 cause i thought today had mandarin class as usual.
But, the class was canceled, and by the time they told me, my mom was already gone.
I was quite angry.
After their lunch, we started our work as we had planned earlier.
By the way, we were doing the seni folio thingy.
I was having a good time with them. Duh!
I always like being together, and do things together-gether.
Together means US only.
Telling you in case you don't understand.
But when they came in, they actually spoiled my mood. Is it only mine? I bet not.
Their jokes were, no offense, very lame and not funny.
I wonder if it was only me the one who felt that way.
Ahh... speechless.
At the end, we didn't manage to finish everything.
Did they?