Drifted apart

Sometimes u just make me wonder...is it all real, is it the real u?....i'm really confused....one moment u're laughing, enjoying..one moment later, it just emo all the way.....silence...not a word mentioned until it concerns u....why do i feel like i'm the one contributing to this....I have no idea if u noticed, but i tried....again n again....but it never works....i feel like i'm the only one not able to do anything, the one whose not able to help out or get along with.... i wonder, are u happy or are u still hoping for something else...i guess it's bcoz we have nothing in common anymore....everyone feeds u with a certain need, desire, interest...something in common....but not me...i think it lost long time ago....everything i do or ask just to end with a one-word answer n then the end....i feel like giving up, [hah!] but i noe i cant...i admit that we could go on a day, everday without talking at all n i woulnt even feel like anything's missing but...it's just my nature to bother...to feel kinda guilty...i do not want this to continue....i want a change, back to the old days...i will try my best to not let this matter slip out hand as long as i can help it....but all i ask of u is just to respond sincerely and realise....

FINALLY!!

HI ppl!!...Finally i'm posting something...i was supposed to post about my langkawi trip..but currently i don't have the time..as u all noe tht the exams r coming up....so i'll catch yall later!!...i noe the others will be angry..but hey, it's still a post!!..so chow!!!

...

just wanted to say,
be yourself and don't act like
you're different or what not.

but still
no offence to anyone who feels like
they're one of those people who aren't themselves.

Thinking Maturely

This time
I begin to doubt myself.
For once, i used to think that i am a good listener.
I am not. I'll complain.
For once, i used to think that i am a good friend.
I am not. I'll betray, someday.
For once, i used to think that i am a good junior/senior.
I am not. I don't have respondsibilty.
For once, i used to think that i am a good daughter.
I am not. I'm just thinking selfishly.
I am not like what you think of.

From now on,
I need not any company
because i don't mind of being solitary.
I believe
i can fly without wings;
i can dream without fairy tales;
i can shine without light;
and,
i can move on without you
because i have to.

and, I'll never, ever, hate myself in my whole life.

''It tears me up.
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much.
I tried to forgive but it's not enough,
to make it all okay.''

; Broken String, James Morrsion & Nelly Fertado

Our garden

I ponteng school today.
Somehow, i went to school at 1 cause i thought today had mandarin class as usual.
But, the class was canceled, and by the time they told me, my mom was already gone.
I was quite angry.
After their lunch, we started our work as we had planned earlier.
By the way, we were doing the seni folio thingy.
I was having a good time with them. Duh!
I always like being together, and do things together-gether.
Together means US only.
Telling you in case you don't understand.
But when they came in, they actually spoiled my mood. Is it only mine? I bet not.
Their jokes were, no offense, very lame and not funny.
I wonder if it was only me the one who felt that way.
Ahh... speechless.
At the end, we didn't manage to finish everything.
Did they?

Crapping !!!

Well, it was a damn boring day in school today. Our 'considerate' school had organize a 'Bengkel Kecermelangan Pelajar' (something like that) to refresh our memory about PMR format as if we don't know !! If I have known earlier, I probably will skip school today.

Ok....another purpose of today's post is to fulfill Jye Yih's wish..(say thank you to me, Jye Yih..XD). Why aren't anyone posting anything (Yuan Ting..you are exceptional!)??? What happenned to Ashwathi wanting to post about her trip to Langkawi Island.....no offense Ash...but its ancient now, but i would still like you to post about it.

Now, I am currently addicted to fairy tales songs.....all thanks to the interact club charity play...titled The King And I.....well, but if you hear, know and understand the lyrics of Waltz Disney songs, you will understand my addiction. It is not only that the songs is nice, but it is also meaningful. Listen carefully!!! hehe....(Khoo's favourite line nowadays)

That's all for know...tata!

Awesome

Charity Play

It was nice.
Except for the part which i couldn't watch the whole play of 'The King And I' as i was busy carrying the props at the backstage.
But overall, i enjoyed it. =)
Working with Jolene;
Eating with Rav;
Gossiping with Jane;
Taking pictures with Jye Yih;
Performing with Ashwathi.
Lastly,
Laughing with THEM.

''If the mind keep thinking you've enough
but the heart keep telling you don't give up
who are we question to be what is what, don't give up
Through it all, Just stand up''

; Just stand up

Thoughts.Of.Mine

; I will be, Avril Lavigne

You never understand how much does a tear worth.
For once, i thought we are always together, for now at least.
But somehow, that thought is a mistake, a huge mistake.

'There's nothing i could say to you
Nothing i could ever do to make you see
what you mean to me
all the pains, the tears i cried'

Because i just realize that, there's nothing more, in us.
This is how far we can reach.

Sweet Memories

Today is the day where we talk about all the sweet memories that happenned in primary school.

• How I was the 'pelik' girl in school.......
• How 'the Gang' controlled the school...
• What a drastic change that happenned in everyone.....
• The famous phrase 'I don't friend you' that used to be everyone's favourite sentence.......
• The criticisation of all the teachers in our primary school......

I had a wonderful time today.....It was a laugh ! We should do that more often...:P

(P.S: I know all of you are wondering who is in "THE GANG"......well, you all will be astonished...."THE GANG" consist of 4 people which are Cheryl ,Brenda ,Amy and Vivien....shocking right...hehe!!!!)

The Sacrifaction

Even if it's a dream of mine,
I have no other choice,
but to give it up.

I'm happy ( part 2 ) ;)

I'm gaining alot of weight.
I'm getting FAT.
As in real fat. Why?


I'm also getting darker.
Alot darker than I used to be.
My skin tone is changing. Why?



I keep telling myself its okay, what's important is that I'm happy but how could I possibly be happy if I'm fat?

To syt,

Hope you get well soon.....

-Bless You-

My Disaster. Soon.

Went for a movie at Aeon with xy, ravi and cheryl.
'The confessions of a shopaholic'
Nice one of course. i believe in my taste.
The cinema's room was DAMN cold.
Plus, it was raining on that afternoon.
I was having a big headache, and sorethroat, and flu. suffered!
And i couldn't concentrate on my piano class.
Straight away after the class, i took a few of pills and went to bed at 5.30pm.
Still, i couldn't sleep that well. Kept awaken from time to time.
And now, here i am. Just awoke from my 13-hours-sleep.
And having a fever.
I think i had it since yesterday midnight. Never mind. Forget 'bout it.
Later still got tuition. Want to skip it but however, i can't do so as teacher said we can't skip the class for more than 4 times and i didn't go for 2 times already, and next week got Charity Play.
So today is a MUST to go.
How pathetic i am.
;(

The conclusion is I'm sick.

BlessMeAgain,
Syt

Titleless

Sometime...you got to let it go.

Eventhough how much you don't want to,

The affectionate camaraderie between us,

Has become weaker and weaker day by day,

The special bonding you felt,

Is no longer there,

And all you had to do....

IS TO MOVE ON!!!

Sorry

juz wanna say sorry to everyone

i didnt do it on purpose ...

;) I'm happy!

Don't they make you hungry?
(cupcakes from bisou)

YAY! exams are over. Im happy and ecstatic. woohhooo. Lately, Ive been craving for cupcakes, durian durian secret recipe cake, the chocolate-melting-in-your-mouth cookies that Tenh bakes, brownies and ginger biscuits. I don't know why. I just feel like having them. Food and_ _ _ _ are what I live for. food _ _ _ _ and never fail to put a smile on my face. lol.

Initially, I wanted to post about iuday like a few days ago but I had to so-called prepare for exams. Just so know you know for mid year exams: SEJARAH FORM 1,2 AND 1-5 FORM 3. Just kill me or stab me with a knife.

iuday was a mess and tak happening. thats what people said. Ohcmon. Give us a break,okay. There wasn't enough food, place or cups. Sigh. The best part was that the garage band worked. everyone liked it which is a good thing. heheheehehe.( thanks syt for signing me up for garage band) although i was kinda mad at first when you signed me up.

I WANNA WATCH CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC.

seriously.. its so cool. i loved isla fisher in defenitely maybe so im pretty sure confessions of a shopaholic rocks. hehehe.

ps. xiao yan, when you post something, you dont delete it, okay? ;p

;) i'm happyy!

Pessimism

Exams just over.
However, i'm still feel stress.
Things start to go wrong.
I've been thinking too much lately.
I begin to worry of myself, the changes in me.
Or rather afraid.
Sigh.


Bless Me,
Syt

꽃보다 남자 Kgotboda Namja

Boys over Flower


Lee Min Ho - Goo Jun Pyo


Kim Hyun Joong - Yoon Ji Hoo


Kim Bum - So Yi Jung



*The Couple*



kiss =)

Well, i am ,currently, addicted to Boys Over Flower, the korea version of 'meteor garden'. Compared to both taiwanese and japanese version, i love korea version the most. The reason is simple; the story is good and sweet, the songs are nice, the guys are cool and good-looking. Lol. =D



Syt

Apology

'Sorry' is the only word i can say to Ravi's mom for the inconvenient.

The story is like this. I told Ravi that my mom's gonna fetch us go and back from asiah the day before yesterday. However today, because my sister didn't go tuition at 4.30, and my mom didn't want to fetch back because she didn't want to drive one more round and fetch us back. So, my mom asked me to ask Ravi's mom to send back. I did as what she told. However, her mom was very busy to send us back but she didn't tell. And normally she straight away fetched her sister in school after her work. And now, because of us, she had to fetch us back home and go out again. Moreover, she ain't finish her work yet ,but she just rushed to asiah and sent us back. And guess what, when i reached home, my mom's doing nothing but looking at the flowers.

Ok, i know you don't get the whole story. I can't explain it more than that by just using words only. The conclusion is i feel VERY guilty towards ravi's mom.

Even it is my mom, i can't deny her fault either. Just because she doesn't want to drive one more round, she had made some inconvenient to ravi's mom.

Sorry!